moving : (

i'm sad to say that we are moving from our wonderful life in nampa to... (drumroll please)... phoenix, az. this is probably the last thing i want to do right now, next only to throwing up for the rest of my pregnancy. i have to move for work and with jadell being out of work for... however long it's been we need to go somewhere where there are still jobs. we tried everywhere in oregon to try to stay close to home but there was no work available for either of us anywhere, and i still have some contacts in phoenix. now all we have to do is find a place to live. wish us luck and keep us in your prayers.

side note: we had to get rid of my puppy today and that was the start of me crying all day(pregnant emotions run amuck.) between getting rid of him and the fear of moving away from family right before the baby comes i was an emotional wreck all day!

Baby?...

So, we're having a baby. Jadell and I found out in November that I was pregnant so that has been quite the adventure. I've been throwing up now for 6 months, lost 15 pounds, and I'm always tired but can't quite sleep. They say that the whole morning sickness thing should only last for the first 4 months at the most, but this doesn't seem to be panning out normal. As far as being tired, I'm starting to get better now, I can function on a normal day but I find that when I eat in the middle of the day I instantly want a nap. I get to bed at a decent hour most days but I don't seem to be able to sleep through a full night. Jadell gets kind of a kick out of the baby thing though, it's finally real to him that there's something growing in my stomach. He's been able to feel it move and now I'm far enough along that you can see it moving. I guess now that we know it's a girl, calling it an it really isn't correct or nice, but I really think a part of me is still hoping it turns out to be a boy. I'm due Aug. 20th, which means we will be just shy of the 1 year anniversary. They baby's name is going to be Kymber Leigh Sharp, if it's a girl after all, and I can't wait to get to know this wonderful little human. If she is as active after birth as she is in the womb we are sure to have our hands full, but as much is to be expected with here parentage. She is already awake for 3 hours at a time every 2-4 hours. It seems I always have my hands on my stomach just enjoying the motion of this tiny miracle. My tiny little miracle... Kymber.

reading...

I'm actually perfectly content with the fact that all I did today was read and do laundry. Okay, so I could have done without the laundry, but to be able to finish the last book of the four I've been working on was no small accomplishment. It took a lot of tears and laughter to get where I am today. Anitta Stansfield is an amazingly talented writer, and if you won't take my words for it you really need to look into reading her books, starting with A Timeless Waltze. It takes you in and out of the joys and struggles of an LDS family as they come to learn and accept that being a member of the Church doesn't make you any less a victime of the struggles of this world, but it gives you some pretty incredible tools to overcome them, namely the Atonement. I found myself sobbing as I tried to get to the end of this last book, but I've never felt so accomplished in such a simple task before this. It's good to read fictional words, well aware of the struggles facing many friends and loved ones, and learn the simple but true principles to help put trials into perspective. I'm not really sure where that leaves me, but many thoughts now buzz around in my head... Thanks Anitta Stansfield.